As I started to embark on this new writing direction, a flood of ideas came to mind. I did a couple of drafts of different ideas. These drafts are close to what I like to publish, but lack something that make me comfortable publishing it.
Then I got to thinking.......Do these drafts lack something or I am overthinking it?
Overthinking......it is something I have always done. I have never been accused of underthinking everything. My father made an interesting observation a couple years ago about my thought process. It went something like this.......he said you think fast. Very fast. You see almost every permutation of a situation. You worked it thought your brain and come to a conclusion or decision. The frustrating part for people around you is that when you go to explain your decision making process, you skip through all or a lot of the parts of that process, and present your conclusion or decision. And people get frustrated that you do not share your thought process.
Yes - this is true.
But he went on.......then when you do share your thought process, it is apparent that you think differently than most people.
In fact as I sit writing this, in my mind I begin to see how each word, sentence and paragraph create this 3D flow chart in my mind. Does this mean that I know how I am going to conclude this post. No, but yes.
But is seeing all possibilities necessarily a bad thing? It can be when it inhibits performance or postpones in making a decision.
So in overthinking what I write, how I write, how it will be perceived, et al., I allow my words to become a prisoner of my anxiety-ridden, completely worrisome, overthinking nature.
This post hopefully will motivate me to set aside that innate nature and put my writings out there.
Thanks for indulging my pseudo-cathartic overthinking.
As always, thanks for reading; more to come.
